Final Update

Hey guys, just wanted to let anyone who checks this know that I'm moving over to a new blog! I've decided to document things in college and any upcoming work experience, so I think it'll be easier to do so on a newer, cleaner blog.

You can find that here!

Thanks for all of your support, guys!!

The World is a Big&Scary Place.

I'm a senior in high school. I'm a girl whose had her heart snapped and shattered and stitched back together. I'm a person trying to figure out the rest of her life when she's only being shown the corner of the picture. It's like I'm trying to figure out this puzzle and set it up, you know, with the edges all done and pieced together. But then, I only know what the smallest piece of it looks like.


I miss the innocence of childhood, back when kissing a boy meant we would be together forever and not trying to salvage something that was never really there a week later. I miss knowing who I wanted to be, before people started asking me "Why?" and "How?" so damn often. I miss feeling happy, like really happy. I miss having friends, back before friends turned to almost-lovers and then strangers.

My apologies for the sappiness. It's been a long week, and I had my senior prom a week ago, today. The future is terrifying me, to be honest.

To update all of you, so much has happened but it seems to all have come undone. I hate when life works like that. Here's a poem I wrote earlier today.

Three days.

Months of keeping you away,

weeks and weeks of being so careful,

all undone in three long days.

We were kings and queens,

your arms on my waist

and my eyes on yours.

The stars danced above us

at three in the morning

as I pulled you close

and tasted your lips.

We sat together but alone,

the rest of the world meaningless.

My lips tasted like rum;

yours reminded me of sunshine.

We drove home in comfortable quiet;

you stalled forever at my door,

but I would wait forever.

You asked my permission and kissed me

one last time.

I can see it now,

how foolish and naïve we were.

We took our time in paradise

and treated it like eternity.

I know now that you’re too busy

for me,

for us.

I know now that we couldn’t make it,

even if we wanted to,

even if we needed to.

I know now that I was falling for you,

quicker than I could catch myself,

quicker than you could catch me.

Three days.

I built up my walls

when he left,

but then I went and gave you

the key.

 

Guess Who's Back . . . Yeah, Again.

 

 Hi guys! I'm going to try to keep this updated again now that I'm moving forward with my life and won't be close to a lot of the people I've been involved with for so many years. Apparently, college exists to make you want to leave home but not leave your friends.

I committed to the University of Delaware and will be going into their Honors Program as a Communications interest major. I'm super excited about everything coming up and can't wait to be there in the fall! 

I've also updated my books and short stories pages; I've been super active (you know, because I was MIA for, like, two years) and wrote some things I'm proud of! Let me know if you read any of them or even like their covers or summaries. Any feedback at all is super useful.

Okay, I am exhausted because senior year is exhausting, but I will try to post more often. If you read this, let me know so I can see how my followers are doing after my hiatus!